how to be 2

I think it's the same part of me that loves everything Anne of Green Gables that is totally enraptured by the Olive Us web series.  They capture the fantasy of childhood through the eyes of youth.  This most recent episode, however, tugged at a different part of me.  The part that loves the later Anne books, where she and Gilbert set up their House O'Dreams.  The part that aches for a little family of my own.

I love watching little June in this video with her bouncing curls being every bit of a two year-old.  The joys, the trials, all of it made my heart ache for a baby of my own.  I so dearly want to be a mom.  I take mental notes of how my friends are raising stellar kids and try to slyly scope out clothes for infants while shopping.  Small pangs of jealousy come over me when I see young families crammed into a booth at a restaurant.  Something just feels like it's missing in our life right now.  Luckily we're much closer to family and friends with infants aplenty for me to cuddle until I become a mom to temporarily fill the hollow part of my chest.


p.s. I may or may not have bought another copy of Anne of Green Gables this week because I inadvertently packed all of the series on the slow boat to China.  I'm such a simple creature...