birthdays

I just had a birthday and it had me waxing philosophical.  Birthdays can be really wonderful things.  Whole days to be reminded of your awesomeness and be surrounded by those you love.  At least, that's what it was in my mind.  I admit, leading up to my birthday, I was kind of dreading it.  There have been a great many things going on in the personal realm of my life, most of which have left me feeling drained.  I felt myself craving friendship and support from those around me.  Asking for help seemed unbearable.  Asking for attention on my birthday?  Well, that just seemed pathetic.  So I knew the day was coming, but didn't want to face a potential day of loneliness.

I should have known better though.  My birthday came around and was perfect.  The day of was spent with a kindred who treated me to McDs Cokes, lunch, furniture shopping, and most importantly, her company.  I received the most wonderful messages from friends all over the world, touching base and sharing their love with me.  Mr. F gave me a whole evening of his company.  No books, no meetings, no gadgets.  Just me and him.  It was bliss!  We haven't had time to talk like that in, well, I don't know how long...  There was just me and him and perfect moments.  He kept asking if I wanted to go to dinner, but I wanted nothing more than to be with him right then and there.

To top it all off, the next day was a coffee morning at my apartment.  Right on time, I saw my friends walking past my window with cakes, cards, balloons, and flowers, singing "Happy Birthday" like carolers, and filling my little home with so much joy.  It was such a simple celebration but it was exactly what I needed.  I needed friends, conversation, a bit of attention, and some wonderful kindreds telling me that they care.

An event I had been dreading turned into one of the best birthdays on record for me.  It has rejuvenated my soul and brought me nearer to people I desperately need in my life right now.  I have been taught that I need to be a better friend, to remember that others need to be made a fuss over, too!  And I've been reminded that kindred spirits are always there for you when you need them.



cake was made by me and was my favorite strawberry lemon yogurt cake.  rather than using a bundt, the batter filled two round cake pans.  I layered the cakes with a healthy dose of cream cheese frosting and said goodbye to the sight of my natural waist (: